What Life Makes You

Too often, I go through life believing that the personalities and idiosyncracies of the people I meet are simply the way those people are and always have been.   I forget that we change and evolve into an ultimate person who emerges at the end of our life = the culmination of all the experiences we have endured, suffered, and enjoyed over the years. But this, of course, is what happens.

Life can be a great big pile of steaming dog shit - just sayin' - and thus begins the unfair and repeated beatdown we are all destined to endure throughout our lives.   We start out happy and naive, looking forward to a fair and equitable distribution of happiness and fortune that will befall us throughout the expanse of our reasonably long lives.  We expect that good things will happen to us as long as we are good.  We treat others as we would like to be treated.  We love our family and are faithful to our partners.  In short, we expect that if we work hard and act nice we will be favored.  But who will favor us?   There is no one there to save us.  It is only the individual ... the individual who is in control of nothing... as it turns out.

And so our lives take twists and turns that are unexpected and unseemly.  Great big gaping holes in the road present themselves as obstacles that we can't imagine clearing.  Life throws fire bombs and poison arrows at us.  Life is out to get us. 

Surely this is how we must all feel at points.  But we must remember to perservere.  For every bullshit block in the road, there are two rest stops with your name on them serving free hugs and happiness.   I have never been a particularly faithful person.  But I believe in life.  I believe in waiting for the good parts, and there are always good parts.  Within the shadow of a horrific nightmare, there is a sparkle that shines for you - and that sparkle, as long as you wait for it, will grow into a firework - a splendid display of all the good in your life, of all the good you have been waiting for.  Things really do get better.   It WILL get better.  It MUST get better. 

Allow your life to take the path it will.  Find out what your life will make of you.  And remember that you can't make a cake without the right ingredients - all that life will make of you is composed of parts you already have.  You will be, you already are ...  Strong.  Resilient.  Worthy.